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Well kali ni tanak post ape yg menarik tentang yang dah berlaku dalam idop tp cume skada meluahkan perasaan yg ade dlm ati skang.

I am 22 years old. The youngest in the family. A daughter and a sister for my family. I love my family and I love my life too. I love to make friends, I love to hang out with some friends which I comfort to. Sometimes I could spend for several hours talking and laughing with bunch of my good friends. I love doing that coz I hate being alone. Maybe I was born in small family. Just 4 of us in the family. My dad, my mom, my bro and i. saya suka keadaan yang meriah. Maksud nye bile ramai2 saya jadi gembira. Tu sebab I always spend my lifetime with my friends. Coz that’s the time I could feel like I have a very big family.

When I was 14, I get into virtual chat via MiRC. Well there are pros and contras when you get into this activity but I do enjoyed making friends here. Several gathering I dah p. actually maybe I get involved ni pun sbb I ni agak low self esteem dulu dan sampai skang. So bile I kenal ngan org2 yang bole menerima I seadanya, I sangat la gembire. Like last night, I joined a small jom jumpa session again at shah alam. Lepak, makan, gelak tawa, tuka citer and gossiping. I balik dari sana around 12.15am. I knew it was late. Im the 1st one yang balik dr majlis tu. Coz my mom dah call. And one thing tabiat my mom, kalo call tak pnah elok2. I mean she could do better instead of saying like this ‘ hah dah tak tahu jalan rumah dah?’ then dia terus letak tepon. She could do something like asking where am I, balik la, dah lewat, nnt takot bwk kete sorang2. so lepas my mom call ckp cmtu, I balik. I bukan derhaka ok. But this is my mom. Even though I rase tanak balik je but I fikir, I masih duduk dgn dia, dia yang tanggung makan minum I, study I, so takkan I nak wat bukan2. lagipun I ni anak dia. The only daughter.

This morning, I woke up, she started perli2. fine dia nak perli coz I tahu la I balik lambat. Tp perli dia ni sbenanye slalu akan nyaketkan ati dia balik. Coz I malas nak bertekak when I salah, and my bro jadi batu api utk my mom. Baik diam lagi bagus. Then tetibe dia ckp ngan my bro, ‘abg jd ke kite balik kampong? Ucu suh Tanya ko’ then I nyampuk ‘balik kampong? Nak ikot.’ Well I nak amik ati la kan? Lgpun aritu my mom dah ckp sabtu nak balik kampong. So I dah kosongkan jadual aktiviti I untuk family. Tetibe my mom jwb ‘eh ko kan byk aktiviti, byk kawan, tak leh usik jadual ko’ well I diam. I tau dia tgh perli i. my bro pun mula la jadi lahanad. Jadi batu api. I masuk bilik and main game. Tgh2 I main game my mom masuk and asked ‘nak p ke tanak? Kalo tanak pun takpe, ko kan sibuk ngan kwn2’ well nape nak gune ayat2 cmtu? Kalo tanak I p ckp je la. Toksah nak nyaketkan ati. I diam je. I tak jwb pape. Then my mom asked again ‘ko tak dgr ke mak tny ni’ then I jwb ‘jgn nyaketkan ati org kalo last2 nnt mak yg saket ati’ my mom diam and tros kuar dr bilik i. I tatau apa I ckp td. Yesterday I spent my whole day with her. Pegi sana sini then malam I kuar. I balik lambat skit dia nak perli mcm ari2 I buat cmni. Bile mak nak perasaan yang anak dia dah grown up and let me manage myself. I do need her as guidance tp biar la I yg manage myself. Ni tidak, apa color baju kurung pun dia tentukan. Yeah yeah the only daughter. But the only son tu tade plak kene kan? Apa I buat, dgn sapa I kuar, I pegi mana sume dia nak tahu. Sometimes I lied. I tipu dia coz I tanak dia tahu pun apa I buat kat luar. As long as I tak buat keje2 jahat, keje haram, biar la. I nak cube rase apa org lain rase. My family ni mcm a bit kebelakang. Maybe sbb umo mak ayah pun berapa kan? But the way mak jaga I mcm I ni baru 15. my dad lain. Dia bagi I kuar. I mean dia bagi I rase, dia bg I cube and bile ada yg tak btol, dia tego. But sumtimes abah ilang sabar bile mak bebel2 ngan dia pasal i. hello. Kalo takat kuar makan area umah nak bebel satu kampong. Sape tak ilang sabar. Belom lagi anak dia ni p clubbing ke, mabok2 ke. Club pun tak pnah p. bopren pun tade. Ape dia nak takotkan ntah. LETIH!